lovesick

the worst moment that I am having now.. It's like a film keep rolling in my mind. The more I insist to forget it, the more it'll haunt me. I know there'll be no good ending but I don't know why it keeps running through my head. People even getting bored listen to me, so I prefer not to tell anyone. Attention seeking that's what people will say, I don't want to look so pathetic. Thinking of it make me headache, almost everyday like having a migraine =( I know I need time to let it fade away, I just wonder how someone can let go everything so easily. I am just like a fool playing in this game, toy around till the player is getting bored and satisfied then throw away into a trash. I never know what the player thinks, as toy can't really understand the player's feeling. It's normal, human tend to want something new, something can fulfill their needs and happiness. sick!~ loyalty doesn't truly exist till someone found the right one..

Why am I not the right one and why can't you be the right one? that is the question..